Its been 6 years

Six years ago today I had my 1st miscarriage.

A day or so before Valentines Day, I always seem to get angry and sad and it isn't until Valentines Day arrives that I remember why - Valentines Day was the beginning of the miscarriage.  You wonder if you did something wrong, or if you realized something wasn't right that you had gone to the hospital to see if they could do something - but, I just thought I had over done it and had had too much stress at work during the day and a rest would fix everything - boy I was wrong.

You'd think one would be over something like this after 6 years, but obviously not because I'm angry and sad and lethargic and and and - yet again this year.

I guess the one good thing is that the depression isn't going to last as long as it did 6 years ago.

I'll hold on to that.